I have a feeling I'll be getting very little sleep tonight; I'm terrified to shut my eyes now I'm thinking about the scary film we watched on saturday. Even a million episode of Ramsay's kitchen nightmares and underage and pregnant aren't putting my mind at ease...Eeek!
Not really looking forward to my 6:30am alarm tomorrow morning either, but it has to be done! Man I just can't wait to be out of full time education and into the real world of working and starting my life properly. Certain friendships will be ending and fresh starts will be made, I have promised myself that.
I honestly believe that all I need right now is my boyfriend, my sister and my doggy; everybody else somehow always manages to put me down and try to ruin my day. Don't get me wrong, when my friendships are running smoothly, they're lovely, but lately I've been feeling more and more like I'm going to cry when I'm around certain people.
Belittling me for everything I do/say/wear is not going to help get rid of your insecurities.
I feel like no matter what happens now, we're never going to get our 'girly times' back. We'll never neck drinks and dance to p!nk in my kitchen again. We'll never sit on fields together talking about boys, and trying to be rebellious by smuggling fags from my mum's room. We will never be able to stay on the phone for four hours at a time JUST laughing. I don't know if it's to do with getting boyfriends, or just us growing up, but I think both of us know things will never be the same.
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