Since I started to really take control of my life and finally make myself feel better about, well, myself, I have lost over a stone in weight and i'm actually pretty proud of myself. But like most girls that obsess over this kind of thing I have found that the more I lose, the fatter I feel. Just lately it's been on my mind and bringing me down constantly and I just feel like I need a big change; something drastic to cheer me up and make me feel as beautiful as my boyfriend always reassures me that I am. I just really don't know what?
When I look in the mirror I know i'm never going to see a complete ugly pig staring back at me, but just lately I do tend to avoid them because I just don't feel comfortable in my own skin, and I never have. I'm starting to worry incase I never will.
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So today I have chosen to cheer myself up with a big skull tshirt and a night in with my sister. I get to see Matt tomorrow and spend the night with him (yipee!) a rare treat since the argument with his mum, who still will not apologise or take back what she said. Who knows, it might just be the stress of her and the fear of starting my new job that is making my emotions up & down. I need to calm down, chill out and just smile!
xoxoxoxox
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